She Shares Truth: Psalm 130

I've been in the depths.

Lying on the cold, hard bathroom floor of my college dorm room sobbing to the Lord. My heart was broken and after so many months of stone cold hardness it was crying out to Him.

O Lord, hear my voice! 

Even though it may not sound familiar, it has been a while since I've called to you.

Let your ears be attentive to the voice of my pleas for mercy. 
If you, O Lord, should mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand? 

Because I know I cannot. The weight of my choices, my sin, my shame has become too much. It drives this stubborn soul to my knees.

Oh, sister. Have you been there? 

And then, a light shines through. Because there is still hope. There is always hope.

But with you there is forgiveness, that you may be feared. 

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. The good news for you and me. The better news? The darkness NEVER WILL overcome the light.

Oh, sister. Have you been there? 

Have you felt the freedom, the joy and the peace that come with forgiveness? In total surrender we find the One worthy of receiving our all. It is not too late. It will never be too late.

I will wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope. 

I pick myself up from the bathroom floor or wherever the latest depths have been.

For with the Lord there is steadfast love, and with him is plentiful redemption. 

I am forgiven. Loved. I am redeemed, cleansed, free.

And you are, too. 

So I will live a life of anticipation. I will fear my Lord and wait for him, breathlessly watching for his hand at work.

Will you? Will you chose to live in your identity as forgiven? Will you chose to walk out of that dark place into his glorious light? He hears you. Call out today. There are no depths too deep, no iniquity too dark. 

This post is part of the #SheSharesTruth link up with She Reads Truth. If you are stopping by from there, welcome! As I was writing this I got goosebumps thinking about other women sitting on their computers with their Bibles open pouring over the same verses at the same time. I wrote a little more about the She Reads Truth community on their one year anniversary in this post.

She Reads Truth

On July 13, 2012 I saw a little tweet from a college friend that said, doing a she reads truth bible study. I was curious what it was so I clicked through and found the She Reads Truth community. After investigating and clicking around for a while I tweeted back, I think I'll join you! And that's where it all began. I'm not quite celebrating my personal anniversary but am celebrating this community!

This has not been an easy year, but having God's Word as a part of my every day has made everyday not just bearable but possible, triumphant and even joyful.

When I tell people about #srt I tell them that I finally found something that works for me. The biggest part of making a change, making something happen is having a plan. Since last July, I've known what to read in my Bible and even have a checkbox to click when I do it. As a driver doer wanna get stuff done- I really like those checkboxes.

I've never done this before but I made a little vlog (By the way, the word vlog makes me squirm a little. I think it sounds gross.) to share about my SRT experiences!

It's kinda long (I kinda talk a lot) but here are the highlights...

1) I have a plan and have consistently been reading my Bible for almost a year, for the first time in my life!
2) God has given me truth from him exactly when I needed it and exactly when He needed me to share it with someone else.
3) Having God's word saturing my life has changed my daily perspectives, helped me to be more obedient and to fix my eyes upon him daily.

I've been eating my daily bread this year and I am filled to the measure of the fullness of God.

Have you been feeling dry? Struggling to spend time in God's word and feeling guilty? Pick it up, find a plan and watch to see how He will move in your heart and life. I've been there, felt that and I can tell you for sure that He's waiting.